So Mother Nature decided it was time we made a decision;
Either Level Up or Experience What You Do Not Desire.
I did not realize the world was as bad as it was
I did not realize that toxicities within men and women had escalated to the point it had.
I was Aware that things on the planet were bad – the desecration of our land, our animal and plant life. I was Aware of the corruption within politics (we all are), but I had not Embodied these truths. I had not Embraced these truths to the extent I had this past year.
the bible’s timeframe began to take shape right before my very eyes.
secretly I always hoped I would not see it, fear setting in, let that happen to some other generation. I just want to grow old happily and die naturally and …[translation: keep living in my comfort bubble where I ignore the world’s problems as if they are not also my problems, not yet understanding the connection we have to each other and to Every Thing. I was not shocked to see this happen. I would be lying if I said I was. for one thing, I always kind of knew it might happen while I am present here on earth and for another thing I was warned about this last fall, about the world changing in a major way the following year. and yet, I in my bubble ‘decided’ well….im in school right now, so I guess the major thing will happen once the semester finishes…that sounds about right…because I am the center of the universe and the world revolves around me…so yeah, around late spring-summer the major thing can happen and I’ll be better equipped to deal with it at that time. made sense to me.
didn’t work out that way.
despite awareness, I did not embody that truth and I was shaken to my core along with the entire world.
don’t’ think a person could really prepare for such a thing. kind of like when I had a baby. I thought I was totally prepared, read all the books, babysat out the wazoo, planned pregnancy, totally ready…but you’re never ready for such a life changing affair and I was not ready for this. didn’t seem like anyone going through what I was going through (those who knew this was coming) was. there are different levels to this of course. some people, through their own logic and common sense understand the necessity to not relinquish ALL of your power to outside entities, and they have retained a measure of self sufficiency within their own lives. they know how to fend food for themselves, how to find water, how to keep warm in the cold, etc, etc. we call them “preppers”, but perhaps it is just “common sensers” because we should all know how to grow our own fold and find water, natural abilities that should come from being human, how to take care of yourself. but those “distractions” were removed from our world. let others take care of that for us and we just worry about making this money. we can “buy” food with the money we work for. some people relinquished, some didn’t.
meanwhile back at the supermarkets toilet paper was flying off the shelves at record speed, because in times of turmoil the toilet paper shall be our saving grace [light shines down from heaven onto said toilet paper roll on a pedestal]. whatever happened to food and water in times of crisis? ‘oh that was a thing of the past; we are so beyond that now. toilet paper will sustain us.’
I knew people needed to rest; I new people needed this to happen; I thought it was simply because we lived in such a fast-paced society and without the benefit of calming down we are not able to tune in.
then the great toilet paper scare of america happened.
and I realized just how far from our humanity we had come.
so far in fact that we forgot we are human BEings, and as such, scared of running out of toilet paper in times of crisis. why is that even on the list of concerns? because we became far removed from who we are as human beings to the point where we forgot our basic needs and what matters most.
you see, we already had a virus long before we were given a name to it.
and so I felt the shift – the physical shift – pulling us all together.
spending some time in confinement regained some of our senses. people began to see the way we were living was not fruitful, was not happiness. spending time with family was important, developing our natural talents and gifts was important. enjoying life is important. enjoying Living is important.
after regaining our senses some of us even tried to return said toilet paper – perhaps exchange it for food? But alas, ‘no takebacks’ was the response from commerce.
God disciplines those He Loves.